Tuesday, June 29, 2010

跳痛

went looking for something and found other things. 原来 i used to like writing myself love letters. used to like to jot down smses that i felt were important to me. maybe i still do, just that i don't write anymore, i only keep them in the computer, or blog about it. it's a different feeling, to have something that i can hold and read, and then shed tears over the long journey thus far.

the stuff that i wrote and kept, is pretty amazing to me.
the stuff i threw away/returned, are still kept in my heart.
i guess i don't ever stop loving.

the mementos of friendship are quite great too. it's just kinda sad that we've drifted apart, and were no longer as close. sandra, joy, songyun, baoying too

growing up, it's a long process where we all leave behind history.

i like impromptu dinners too! a luxury on a monday night- pizza + beer - whining about work together. since i've constantly 吃ing, and last monday i've 赌, yesterday i've 喝, i guess next monday i will 嫖 in guangzhou! wahahaha

Sunday, June 27, 2010

friday night

had dinner with the drama girls on friday night. meeting time was 7pm, but almost everyone was late, due to work. bish- there's hardly a thing called knocking off at the stipulated time anymore.
randomly chose serenity spanish food at vivocity. and i was glad we did, it's nice! on the pricey side, but quality was there. just that we could probably have chosen a quieter seat.
4 of us shared a seafood soup + garlic bread, a tortilla salad, a pork knuckle, and the signature paella. the service was friendly, and the wait for the food was shorter than expected. total bill was $116, that's why i said it's ex, though good quality.
with mindy, joyce, evan! qiuling was sorely missed!

wanted to have desserts, so we went to try honeymoon desserts. according to evan, it's quite popular/known in hong kong, just that it's overshadowed by hui lau shan.

joyce's 芝麻糊was bitter,核桃糊 was chaota. evan's green tea ice cream with herbal jelly was not bad. mindy's coconut sago really tasted very solidly of those 2 flavours, and my mixed fruit with herbal jelly was drenched in mango syrup.

the most 骗钱 item- durian pancake. super small and yet comes with an unjustifiable price tag. especially when it wasn't filled with pure durian, but WHIPPED CREAM!

after trying it, i think we're probably not going back if we can avoid it.lol. i think we meet up too little, such that we're really not too sure what each other is up to. a bit awkward in a way. =X and hearing us talk about work makes me realise how much we've grown. i hear the passion in their voices, and realise i probably don't have that. so i need to continue searching for it.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

ROAR

house season 1 ep 22 40:33
the reason i love the show.

my mum sprayed some singapore banned medicine on my knee, and AFTER that, she reads on the bottle '勿喷在开放性伤口'. gg liao lor. 3 hours already, and it still fucking stings.

yes i know.....

evan says i'm not, so don't...
My bro says i m haunted, but its not as simple as painting it over..
I think i left part of my DNA on ECP when my skin got scraped & left behind a big gaping hole.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

我不明

i wanna go out this saturday night, but i've no plans yet. shit. hmm.

i think that job isn't for me, i don't think i'm MNC material yet.

not going to think too much, just revel in finding back a fraction of what's lost. things will work themselves out.

她说:男人要看性格,他要听我的话。 再来是看学历,第三看家庭背景。
而她说:男人要看他疼不疼我,然后看他的人品。而且他必须可以接受排在家人与朋友之后。

她们都已经找到厮守的对象,所以应该知道自己在说什么。 我唯有沉默,况且我该说什么好嘞?
虽然,一致同意,钱并不重要。

看过不非常恩爱的情侣私定终生。 也见过非常相爱的两人不欢而散。 可不可以轰轰烈烈,然后持续不断地保持这火焰,不让它熄灭? 但应该太难了,因为人都是善变懒惰的。

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

mid week blue

my wound is like a lot more disgusting now, owing to the fact that the bruise has spread, and the big hole still looks raw and red.

so i bought iodine and a damn expensive plaster, and stung myself with a cotton bud. it better get better.

was supposed to be a haircut, but i left at 9pm. super tired.

a deadline at tomorrow 9am, and another at 4pm. wish myself luck,

Monday, June 21, 2010

casino on a monday night

just returned from visiting the RWS for the first time ever, on a monday night. That's how happening and mad my colleagues are. Unbelievable! No guts to play, but quite interesting to watch. :p

Has this sudden urge to hear a certain someone's voice. But i shall suppress and ignore it. irrational. no good no good.

leave's approved for guangzhou! Yay!

Sunday, June 20, 2010

sunday again? oh no....

why does the weekend pass so fast? a day out cycling and shopping with hong, and the only update i've got is this:

flew off my bike in a lousy attempt to siam the barrier. it's probably never going to recover, since it's at the straighten/bending part. grrrr

i think this is like the only time we've spent so long together alone. haha is it? and we couldn't stop talking. which was wonderful =)

bought a pair of shorts from cotton on, in the spirit of GSS. haha and finally got our holidays settled. though i've not gotten my leave submitted and approved, the idea of leaving singapore is damn nice. looking forward to nice things ahead!

1) 2B bbq - 3rd july
2) guangzhou - 4th to 8th jul
3) hong kong / macau / zhuhai - 5th to 9th aug

and even though i don't know how it will turn out, i will still try. in a mixed state of mind.

曾经以为喜欢就能在一起,但发现喜欢不是爱。
曾经以为爱可以很久,原来并不够。
曾经以为恋爱是两个人的事,其实拥挤的很。
现在知道不可能再拥有当初那份纯真,和去相信爱情的勇气。
现在的我,学会了爱情的痛。
豁达了。顺其自然=)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

1 day work week commences tomorrow :(

guess i've to face the music now that i've used up all my MC. hmm
the mere thought of it already brings on a sore throat, despite the copious amount of fluids i am flushing down my system.

i must start applying leave! woohoooooo

and i realised that one sure way to get emo is to read the blog archives. not that i am that silly to do it. hahaha

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

harmony restored

things are finally moving ahead, now that we've both thought things through and discussed things as rational calm adults. i'll be damned if there's no hotels/ air tickets, then the gods must be colluding against me.

mom's planning another trip to guangzhou. i just know she has an itchy backside every time this year. whatever la, just go with her lor. hahaha

don't keep harping on negative thoughts, it doesnt do any good.

family harmony restored, yay!

House MD Season 1 Ep 7- Fidelity

Just once is enough to be unforgivable. no matter how much you say you love someone, if you cant have that person in your heart and on your mind at all times, before you do or say anything, then you are not worthy of true love.

real love doesn't need luck, that's probably true. but more often than not, it's going to be the commitment that counts.

another 2 days mc! a 1-day work week!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

losing salt

i don't care what reason you have, some words already spoken cannot be taken back.

i don't know what's the answer you want me to give. when i said taiwan, you said i was selfish. but i won't say hong kong, cause i wouldn't be 100% truthful. since you are the one who calls the shots, am i wrong to say that we just follow whatever your decision is? don't pretend it is up for discussion, we all know where the discussion is going in the end.

so now it's cancelled? fine. the back and forth is killing me. must this happen every single year?!

why in the end is it still you?

my tears can't stop. i should not report for work. not cause i'm sick, but cause i'm emo.

my bro is a wonderful innocent party caught in the gunfire from both sides.

Monday, June 14, 2010

i remember back in the past, we used to communicate through email. kind of touched to see your email in my inbox, the simple words warmed my heart. thanks!

i should try to spend more time to visit ahma. it's so easy to say that it's far, i'm busy, but even without bringing anything, and just staying to talk for 2 hours while she reminisces the past is good enough for her. the smile on her face when we left made me sad that ahma's so old already. some things cannot and won't be forgotten, i guess this is what i inherited-obstinacy. i wish i inherited the drink-like-a-fish gene too lol :p

filial piety is what i learnt from my dad. no matter how mad your mom makes you, she's still your mom. and ultimately, i believe in retribution.

open eyes big big. judge one by observing how they treat family and friends,and also strangers. i know this, but i don't practise this enough. open eyes big big. i don't wanna spend my time with the wrong kind of company.

i need a boyfriend to go taiwan la! lol i am mad, cause i'm sick. AGAIN! 2 days mc!

Sunday, June 13, 2010

making life decisions in the shower

i recall seeing a facebook group called the above. i think i should be a fan of it.
i think to save myself the trouble of planning till my head is big, and still risk having people say i am selfish, i shall just go hong kong in july. AGAIN. (fark!)
maybe i will go taipei alone during my birthday long weekend, which means i should probably plan now too. hmm

on other random notes, ate durians yesterday! were initially skeptical of the ones sold from the back of a van at changi village, but it turned out surprisingly good!
we bought a huge paper sack worth! to share with maternal side relatives. thick orange flesh- yummy!

EIGHT beautiful lilies!

and when randomly walking with evan in orchard, someone passed us flyers for free makeover every sunday at orchard central, for some cleo contest. we went for fun, and i don't think i will win anything, though evan might, haha.

end result:)

and i'm going on mc tomorrow. cant be bothered with work.

fine.

i am selfish huh? for wanting to go taipei after 4 years in hongkong?
i am selfish huh? did i say i don't want to go hongkong cause i don't want to go with the entire family?
i am selfish huh? did i insist on making you change to taipei?
i am selfish huh? what about you? what makes you think i have the obligation to be your tour guide?
i am selfish huh? then why am i worried that we will quarrel cause of differences in opinions? i can just do what i want, and ignore all your preferences, since i am the one planning.
i am selfish?!?!?!?!! fuck.fuck.fuck. i am so fucking pissed. i don't want to talk to you.
if the trip falls through, fuck i dont' care, and i wont. cause i am selfish what.


fuck. knn super pissed.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

everything looks nice.

http://www.ctc.com.sg/tour.php?tourcode=PEN3

http://www.ctc.com.sg/tour.php?tourcode=BKFN

http://www.ctc.com.sg/tour.php?tourcode=SGFE

http://tour.newshan.com/Free_Easy/Thailand/3DKBVRR.html this looks tempting. hmmm

i got leave, but where got lui?

photos entry

celebrated shell birthday all over orchard.

starters + main course @ ippudo: calamari + onion rings (green), gyoza, ramen
drinks @ bedrock: mulata daiquiri and other 'bedrock specials'. paisae i can only remember my own order. i found the receipt! YAY hahaha lala's lonsdale was too sour, the non-alcoholic ice citrus tea is just lemon tea, yj's bedrock whisky sour was nice, but a tad old. lol

dessert @ canele: 66%, rose, caramel+ sea salt, earl grey, vanilla, bolognese pizza

the 7 girls! =)we should meet up more often!

other sweet tooth items recently, of course it was shared!


wild wild wet free ticket and the water rides!

Friday, June 11, 2010

whiny whiner

why don't i have loads of money?!!! why is taiwan to hongkong one way ticket so freaking expensive??? why must the world collude to make me choose between taiwan and hongkong?? when can i go taiwan?? why must my mom choose hongkong?!!! stumbling block in the planning. pui.

why is sales low in june and july? why they want to cut cost, so they force us to not work on a working saturday, and then deduct my leave?!!! not as if i wanted to work in the first place what! then now is not as if i don't want to work what! and they initially wanted to deduct 1 day leave for 1/2 day's work. knn

when should i take leave? what should i do on my off day?

why does it feel that i've become the ka kia who runs errands and does last minute paperwork? and then, whatever i do has to be scrutinized? you not happy you do it yourself la!

why is there no wallet that i like?!! if not my cards keep dropping out of my wallet, how?!!! upsetting!

i wanna play mj!!! i wanna sing! i wanna cycle! i wanna scream! i want to be rich without working, so that i can go taiwan + hongkong. i wanna go europe too! but $4K for 14days east europe, i where got lui!!!

whining on a friday night= i should sleep, before my mood sinks even further into shittiness mode

oh well! going wild wild wet with my colleagues tomorrow. though it sounds boliao, i am excited, cause i've never been there, so hope the weather's fine! meeting evan on sun for brunch (me at least, will be eating), i wish it's going to be a good date! =)

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

monday blues

bad day yesterday, only redeeming thing was that i met dear ql for dinner. =) i like talking to friends, cause it clears my head, and lets me see different points of view. but i always lament the short time we can spend together, due to the sad fact that we have to rise early for work today.

did i say i was sorta confused? i don't think i am now. let time tell right? yes i have questions, but it seems like i didn't get my chance to ask them. so i shan't.

peace restored :)

lala finally uploaded photos, not the usual efficient her, but quite fast liao la. lol

Sunday, June 06, 2010

懒洋洋的周末

totally enjoyed yesterday! ippudo ramen was as good as i remembered, the egg is yummy! even though the wait was 45 minutes long, and the restaurant was a bit too inflexible with their policy. canele dessert was good too, all those yummy ice creams that instantly cheered one up. followed by drinks at bedrock bar. above all, good company - what else is there to ask for? we should toast more often to the good things in life=)waiting for photos from miss lala, we finally have another group photo of all 7, to replace the last one which was in oct 09? hahaha

心里的话与感觉,不知道怎么说,不知道是不是不想说。帕说了出来,就得面对,所以隐藏在心里,假装不知道。问人,倒不如先问自己。但又,乱得自己也整理不出任何思绪。

如果找不到的,真的在你那儿,haiz.

听一首歌,不知凭的,想落泪。谈何容易倒带。谁都懂,爱,回不来。坚决不好奇是对的,知道太多也应该不好。

时间还很多,就慢慢想吧。但若我不想想,应该也能原谅吧。

hai

如果找不到的,真的在你那儿,haiz.

不问太多是对的。知道了有什么好处呢?

Saturday, June 05, 2010

happy =)

had dinner last night with lt, zy, zy by and fj. venue was a little ulu place at bussorah street, called Vintage DeliCafe. didn't expect it to be a halal western italian cafe. food was pretty good value-for-money, and quite yummy. only drawback was that the outdoor seats were warm and stuffy, and service was a bit slow, though enthusiastic (!!) lol

tried looking for a dessert place thereafter that has AIRCON, but the entire bugis area seems not to have this kind of place. central aircon of iluma and bugis goes off at 1030pm. so we did the thing i condemned as low class - Mac vanilla cone. hahaha beggars cant be choosers, any little thing to cool off was nice. and then the tampinesians had another seating at interchange mac to watch 20minutes of france vs china. france no. 8 is not bad looking!

actually it's really nice to gather random people and catch up, even if we aren't normally close. hear about each other's life, or whine together, and get a little closer. =)

superbly happy to know that hp will not ring with any stupid calls from work today, production shut down!!!

looking forward to 7 girls full attendance tonight! i think drinks are in the unspoken arrangement. hahaha yay!

month of july seems good, with a bbq, and a family trip. it's finally on, taiwan PLUS hongkong. wahahahahahahaha. 5 days with my bro, i think i will love it, to spend more time with this wonderful guy before we get too busy with our own lives. 5 days as a whole family, i think we'll get on each other's nerves, and come home wishing to go back again. i shall start to plan. and get leave approved- most important!

yes i'm happy.. =)

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

random roar!!!!

girls are not the only curious ones. many examples abound of the opposite sex.

i cannot blog. damn.

i dislike people who smile without showing their teeth. either you smile, or you don't.

GSS, but bras are still expensive.

i need new shoes, and a happy night out.

friends are more likely to be there when i'm 50, as it's less complicated. we can speak our minds, and have inter-fren-tions. YAY to friends!

the song on her blog is not the best thing to hear last thing at night.

escapism

thinking about escaping somewhere, anywhere in the middle of the year, middle of the week. breakfast + cycling on saturday sounds nice, hongkong or taiwan sounds fun. Problem is, can i do it alone? just me and my thoughts, and a different world.

Satc2 was nice, being bimbotic and filled with lovely clothes, and hot guys.